College!!

Oh my goodness. So...... In less than 5 months, I will be in College. Crazy. People my age are all thinking, "in 12 months I will be in College".. But not me. 5 months!! Ahhh! I am soooo stoked for it. I am taking a bunch of online classes and I am graduating High School early. I will be graduating in December then going to Hawaii with my family for almost 2 weeks. When I return from that trip, I will pack up and head off to College. I am going to attend Dixie State down in St. George. I already have a place to stay and everything! I'm going to be rooming with my sisters old roommates. I am so stoked because I am going to be roomroommates with Alex... She is so freaking funny and I can not wait. I just want these next 5 months to go by super fast so I can get out of here, live on my own and start my life. I feel like I am growing up way too fast, but I love it. College life is going to be  a blast. Especially with the girls I will be with down there. Can't wait!

Poison Ivy...YOU SUCK!!

So about two weeks ago I started to get these enormous hives all over my arms and legs. They weren't going away so I went to my pediatrician who said I had poison ivy! Yayy me, right? So he put me on this medicine called 'prednisone'. Some dumb steroid that makes my blood sugar rocket straight up to the sky. So... naturally I am pretty grumpy about it. For the last 7 days, my blood sugar has been jumping from the 500's.. to the 600's.. back down to 100.. back up to 600. And oh is it a bundle of joy. I feel like I have been run over by a train and like there is an elephant standing on my poor head. So.. I am now up at 1:34am.. writing on my blog. Why? Because I can't sleep. At all. I've been trying, but it's not gunna happen. This medicine apparently has a bunch of caffine in it as well. So it keeps me up.. way past my bed time. I'm exhausted, but can't force my body to sleep. Oh man. Thank you so much Poison Ivy.. I love you. NOT!

Testimony Builder

Woww.. crazy what the spirit can do. So just last night, Saturday night. I got invited by a bunch of friends to go to a party. It was an 80's party and was supposed to be way fun. And clean too! It was a bunch of good people. Good LDS friends, with super high standards. But for some reason, when I was invited I had a really bad feeling that I shouldn't' go. Which really confused me right? Cuz they are all really good kids! But! None the less, I listened to the voice inside my head and heart and didn't go. Who knows? They could have gotten in an accident, something like that and I was being warned. Well.. recently my friend who invited me said.. " Hey Ali, you were right. a bunch of drunk kids crashed the party so we had to leave." Once I heard that, I was overcome with the spirit so strong. My testimony just grew about 100 times!! I love this gospel. I don't know what in the world I would do without it! 

Girls Camp!

Things I learned at Girls Camp:


*Be yourself.. because everyone else is taken.
*Think about who you are praying to.
*Without faith, it's hard to accept the gospel as it is.
*Keep your faith and you will be blessed.
*Accept the consequence as it is.
*It's not just telling the truth, but being true.
*Find out who you are and do it.
*Try to do the best you can.
*Rely on your Heavenly Father to get through it.
*We are all princess's waiting to be Queens to return to The Kingdom.
*Be more open about your feelings.
*Be a tool in the Lord's hands.
*Be like the wind.. touch everyone with the gospel.
*Se everyone as our Heavenly Father sees them.. Everyone including yourself.
*Service makes a difference.
*Knowledge is power
*The more you see sometime the less you know.
*Forgive and forget.
*Good friends are all you need.

Fathers Day In Heaven

Daddy you're in heaven now, 

That's not suppose to be.. 

On this special father's day 

You are usually here with me.  

This is the first time to celebrate 

Your day without you near. 

But I still want to celebrate 

The father you were 

When you were here.  

I can't imagine Father's day 

In heaven up above, 

All the daddies gone from earth 

Surrounded with HIS love.  

My love for you will never fade 

The memories in my mind like a whirl.

You will always be my daddy, 

And I your little girl.  

Your time on earth as my dad is over. 

But someday we will meet in heaven brand new.

With our Father you now celebrate 

The love he has given you.  

Daddy I'll always love you, Happy Father's Day. 

Birthdays In Heaven

Today is my Daddys Birthday. I miss him like crazy. I wrote this poem in memory of him. It's called 'Birthdays In Heaven'..

I heard you crying yesterday
And felt your heart-sent love
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.

You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My birthday (way up here)
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.

God planned a special day for me
He told me with a wink
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think)

I’m getting lots of hugs from God
He’s really good at that
And every time that I walk by
He gives my head a pat

Balloons will fill the streets for me
They float up through the clouds
And we have lots of clowns up here
That make us laugh out loud

There is a birthday carousel
Jeweled horses ride the wind
With music playing oh so sweet…
The magic never ends

I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings

We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts, surprise!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies

Dear Diabetes:

Dear Diabetes-

I NEED A VACATION.

I need a vacation from you, and all you entail.

I need a vacation from the blood sugar testing; the carb counting, the bolusing, the temporary basal rates of it all.

I need a vacation from blood sugar testing- Oh wait, I already mentioned that. But since I test my sugars between 10 and 15 times a day- I’ll mention it again.

My fingers and I need a break from the continual blood sugar testing!

I need a vacation from my infusion set’s getting caught on doorknobs.

I need a vacation from the unexplained highs and the unexplained lows.

I need a vacation from the stares….and the glares from the Food Police.

I need a vacation from the anxiety you bring with you to my world every single day your in it.

I need a vacation from the planning you require of me- every single time I walk out the door.

I need a vacation from continually having to consider you, whenever I try and plan my day-to-day living.

I need a vacation from the quadruple checking to make sure I have all your Diabetes paraphernalia including but not limited to: spare batteries, testing supplies, backup testing supplies, backup infusion sets, insulin, glucose tabs, & extra food “just in case” you decide to head south.

I need a vacation from being “tethered” to my plastic pancreas.

I wonder what it would be like to spend even 1 day with a pancreas that was fully functional?

I need a vacation from you Diabetes.

And I can never take one, because you are with me - ALWAYS.

I accept that- because ignoring you won’t make you go away.

Ignoring you would mean you’d win- and that will never happen.

I own you- and I’m in charge of our day to day of it all- NOT YOU.