Dear Diabetes:

Dear Diabetes-

I NEED A VACATION.

I need a vacation from you, and all you entail.

I need a vacation from the blood sugar testing; the carb counting, the bolusing, the temporary basal rates of it all.

I need a vacation from blood sugar testing- Oh wait, I already mentioned that. But since I test my sugars between 10 and 15 times a day- I’ll mention it again.

My fingers and I need a break from the continual blood sugar testing!

I need a vacation from my infusion set’s getting caught on doorknobs.

I need a vacation from the unexplained highs and the unexplained lows.

I need a vacation from the stares….and the glares from the Food Police.

I need a vacation from the anxiety you bring with you to my world every single day your in it.

I need a vacation from the planning you require of me- every single time I walk out the door.

I need a vacation from continually having to consider you, whenever I try and plan my day-to-day living.

I need a vacation from the quadruple checking to make sure I have all your Diabetes paraphernalia including but not limited to: spare batteries, testing supplies, backup testing supplies, backup infusion sets, insulin, glucose tabs, & extra food “just in case” you decide to head south.

I need a vacation from being “tethered” to my plastic pancreas.

I wonder what it would be like to spend even 1 day with a pancreas that was fully functional?

I need a vacation from you Diabetes.

And I can never take one, because you are with me - ALWAYS.

I accept that- because ignoring you won’t make you go away.

Ignoring you would mean you’d win- and that will never happen.

I own you- and I’m in charge of our day to day of it all- NOT YOU.